Yesterday morning, I did not
want to get up. But I did, I got ready
for work and left to pick up my friend.
We live in one of the most beautiful places in the world. As we are going down the hill, she is telling
a story and my earring gets caught in my scarf (for probably the 5th
time in 3 minutes.) I’d had it. I took off the F’n earring rudely interrupting
Lisa and I turn to her with a not very happy look. Big smile on her face, hand out to hold my
earing and then motioning towards the mountains, which have a beautiful dusting
of snow on them and they are sparkling in the sun and on and on. I felt better, at least I can work, “it will
be fun I tell myself.” I make it through
the show and drop off Lisa. All I can
think of the few blocks home, is what is wrong with me. I have a great life, someone I love who loves
me back; a wonderfully wild cat; many friends, healthy family, blah, blah,
blah.
My feet hurt, I am tired and
hungry, I just wanted to cry. I greeted
my sweetie, left him working in the shop and went straight to the bedroom. Laying on the bed stretching my sore feet and
back, all I could think about was what is wrong, why does nothing in my life
excite me. Then after about half an hour,
I took Advil, had lunch and was feeling better.
Still a bit grumpy though. I turn
on the computer, methodically going through e-mails and I notice a private
message from a friend. She sent me a
copy of the most recent, Planetary Ascension Posts, http://www.gamabooks.com/posts.html
January 26th post. It was just what I
needed to hear, I am not the only one, I am not alone. This post is titled, Cliff Hanging and
Rebooting, and I quote from the first paragraph of this post. “We are at the edge of the next cliff, which
means we cannot move forward until the next plateau is ready for us to
occupy. And While we are poised at the
edge of the cliff, some specific things are occurring.”
What struck me in addition to not feeling
alone is her explanation of cliff hanging being how we know that good things
are coming, but we're not feeling them yet, they are not quite here, and we are
tired of waiting. Rebooting, meaning the
need to unplug before we start again. Much of it resonated with me, and I was
finally able to take a deep sigh and know this too shall pass. My Wonder Filled Moment was the realization
that I am okay and that I can have some difficult or bad moments and still see
all the wonder filled ones around me. Like...
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| Beautiful Sunsets |
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| Fun with my Hunney |
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| Kitty Chula |
This is great! Sharing what we experience with others helps them to realize that THEY are not alone either! It is very powerful. So Linda, I guess we will wait together for our new space to be ready for us. Again. : )
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